a poem from a long time ago.

My heart aches
something vicious
tears at the surface
I wonder if you could bear
to see me
cry?

They tell me I'm strong
But strength shouldn't
tear me apart like this
if strength
hurts this much
I'd rather let
weakness
paralyze me.

Do you even let
the neurons in your mind
play my sweet
melody?
Do your lips
hum
with expectation
of words spoken
not so long ago?

If pain were healing
I'd rather be numb.